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Burning in the ears

April 7, 2012

A text from my mother, yesterday:

“I saw that ‘it gets better’ link you posted on facebook. are you “coming out” with that, cuz we are totally on board with whatever makes YOU happy…..”

Another text, ten seconds later:

“Did you get your birth certificate yet? I sent it in the mail…”

My ears caught on fire. I began the response.

“I got the certificate.”

*…backspace backspace backspace.*

“Sure why not. I got the certificate.”

I pressed send. It was my latest in factually accurate, yet noncommittal, plausibly sarcastic responses to the question. Kinda like that other occasion when I insisted that, yes, I am totally fabbbbulous. Each time I wondered which people would believe: my words, my tone, or the plumes of smoke wafting from my smoldering ears.

My ears melted down my skull for a few moments. Then:

“seriously??? it’s really late for april fool’s day……what’s it like?”

I massaged my ear. My hand came back unsinged, but my ears still felt hot.

“not trolling. as for what it’s like…

It’s like…a burning in the bosom. You can tell people about it, but they won’t know unless they’ve experienced it.”

Mom’s response came back after a few more minutes.

“Is that why you turned away from the church? because youre gay?”

My response:

“No. I left because I never burned in my bosom.”

Just in my ears.

This conversation basically happened as is, except the last few lines were nowhere near as cool. I actually texted that “it was like” the taste of salt…and then my answer to the question of leaving the church was more like: because I never believed in it, but I did come to believe it was disrespectful to others and unhealthy for myself to try to play a role. Everything has been received positively. My dad called after and after talking about it for a bit, we talked about his plans to start a business, get an MBA, as if nothing had changed. Because nothing has changed.

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  1. Love it… and if you’re as cute as the Mormon guy from Angels in America, write to me! LOL 🙂

  2. i don’t think i’ll be winning any beauty pageants any time soon

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