I am being trolled by a blog
So, today, moseyed over to By Common Consent. They had an interesting discussion: “Why I’m not an atheist.” And I mean, there are lots of reasons people could talk about not being atheist, but Kevin, I think, picked a rather tame issue…I mean, death? That’s not much to sweat over.
I was going to comment on it, and I did. Yet, when I commented, I noticed that next to my comment, it said:
Your comment is awaiting moderation.
What a strange occurrence…I didn’t recall that BCC had comment moderation…and you know, I know that a lot of sites have mandatory comment moderation…so I don’t feel bad about those sites because I know that it just takes a while for the blogger to get to moderating. This blog, believe it or not, has moderation for all new commenters (or people with too many links in posts)
Regardless, I don’t have time to try to moderate everything, so if I approve one of your comments, generally, my system will let future comments through, unless I put you on some kind of list.
So…in the two hours since I sent my comment (this is sad and a sign that I need to get off the internet — all of this happens in a two hour span of time!) I’m wondering…what could be going on.
When I post comments, I like to sign up for replies. I think blogs that don’t allow comment subscription…should work on that (if my blog doesn’t allow for it, then I need to know — because I’m pretty sure wordpress allows it).
So, I keep getting emails from others whose comments are going through. And it makes me wonder if things are just taking time.
But how did I get into this conundrum? I had heard BCC had a robust comment moderation policy…I think they view their site like a bonsai garden — prune things so that the conversation doesn’t get too wild. I guess I’m thankful MM is generally not like that. But I had never really believed it. And then I got to thinking…perhaps I have made some comments that got close to the line (or even crossed it) on some recent posts.
So, in two hours, the paranoia and conspiratorial thinking began to churn. And the best/worst part is…BCC is doing nothing! It’s not like they are purposefully doing anything other than taking sweet time to moderate. It could completely not be malicious or purposeful at all, but as the gears turn in my head, the worst comes to mind.
I think the worst part is that there’s no closure. If you know you’re banned/suspended, then you deal with that. But in a void…woah. There is no way to orient.
I find myself turning back to my escapades in the accounting world. When I first started…I had no idea about the different firms. Eventually, I got a whiff of some firms, and I thought I really liked one…and throughout recruiting, I thought surely they would be the one. Yet, through recruiting, I found some things that seemed more distastful to me, and eventually, another firm (actually, two) caught my eye. They didn’t seem as “in the forefront” as the first, although at least one was a Big 4 like the first, so it was theoretically just as competitive as the first firm. In the end, I felt disaffected from the first Big 4 firm and I felt more at ease with the second…and it actually came to a point where the first Big 4 firm ceased to be an option (a swift and quick rejection from them ended it) and I was duking it out between a second Big 4 and a middle market firm that was larger than regional, but probably only nominally international.
Sorry, this is a really cryptic story. I remember coming on the Bloggernacle scene once upon a time. I think I saw T&S first, but I just didn’t like them (no offense, really!). I can think of the Big 4 firm I think they represent (especially with some of the downsizing they have had), but I’m not naming names. When I saw BCC, I thought that was the one, so I think they represent the first Big 4 firm. But over time, Mormon Matters caught my eye too and also Main Street Plaza and they both had extended offers to blog — another Big 4 and a Mid Market (which makes me wonder: how does Feminist Mormon Housewives compare as the fourth Big 4?). I was flattered. I really haven’t lived up to expectations at either site, and so maybe that’s why I still cling to Irresistible (Dis)Grace?
But I’m still rambling. Isn’t it funny how things can turn out so differently than we had imagined. I once aspired to work with one firm…and I can’t say I aspired to write for BCC (I thought it was inaccessible — I really didn’t think someone could just get into an established blog like BCC, T&S, or MM…which is really why I was flattered)…I thought they were the one.
And just as in the end, I got r-r-rejected from one firm (and at the very end too…I mean, I could’ve avoided an office visit and everything if they had told me earlier!)…I may be regarded merely as a troll to be moderated by a blog.
This is really pathetic. I just wrote 880 words about this.
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